EthicalCentral Lifestyle Journals

hey! no i have not fell off the face of the planet. i was getting strange comments on this blog and judgmental ones at that. so anyway, i moved to myspace. so you can look me up there if you were reading me. just send me an email and let me know you were reading me here at ethical central and i will approve you as my friend. well unless you are the one that has been making nasty comments.

I have loved blogging here for the last 5/6 years. So thank you to all who read about me I am not sure if i am going to keep blogging here or not. i have a lot on my plate right now and would like to just keep it to one area.

if you go to myspace. look for Ariella and colorado. i do have a pic up so that will help you find me. i can't imagine that there are THAT many of us!

thought i would post a quick note, as i am faced with a lot of fear over the possible coming end of this marriage. if that is what he wants i am willing to accept it, but i do see where it could work out if only both of us would be willing to try.

Anyway- i am on the one week countdown here. he has until the end of october. so that is one week away now. guess we will see what he decides to do. and then go from there.

No working out or teaching today. i am kind of glad. we are going on a field trip to the mountains. not sure if we are hiking or not, but i think it will be fun. it will be nice to just spend the day playing with the kids and then doing some school when we get back.

hello blog and anybody that still may occasionally check in with me here. i know i have been not so good at blogging. i did set up a myspace page. yes, i know what am i doing at myspace. well i have reconnected with some friends there and honestly i went on there initially to check on my stepsons. i think that i found they both have blogs there. it is interesting to see what they are doing. they both lied about their age, but i am 99% certain it is them.

Anyhoo.... normally i would not do stuff like that but i was a little worried about the younger one. so that is why i was just seeing what they were up to.

So me, well things are going good. i am SO busy with homeschooling and teaching and kids classes we are aLWAYS on the go!! A lot of the time it is fun though.

things are still rough with my husband. he has until the end of the month to decide if he still wants to be married or not. i wish him no ill will whatsoever. if he doesn't want to try and act as a married couple though i want to be set free. he doesn't talk with me and that is huge. Anyway.... so we will see what he decides to do. I told him taht i really wanted to try to work it out though.

Then of all the times, i met up with my first boyfriend. now out of all the boyfriends prior to my husband of course, he is the only one i had any feelings for. he was my first love & first kiss. obviously you can tell i was not religious when i was younger - otherwise i would not have had many boyfriends! oy. the timing of that whole thing is weird. But it is nice to hear how he is doing. It is fun to talk and catch up. have not talked with him for about 15 years now. I have wondered about him off and on. But not really since i got married though just so you all know.

I AM rooting for working the marriage out. and i gave him the ultimatum the end of september. That he had one month to decide. so i guess in another 1 1/2 weeks, i will find out if we are going to try. i am doing what i can though to better myself and work on being a better wife. But it can't be only one sided. He doesn't like many of the things i am doing now ie. teaching yoga, meditating, and he doesn't like many of the things i was doing BEFORE we got married ie. following halacha (jewish law) more closely than he does, i dont see this as a big deal but he does . the funny thing is though he KNEW that before we got married. I also want more kids and he does not. another thing, he KNEW i wanted a big family. it is not fair to limit me to only 2. when he knew i wanted around 8. so that gives you a little picture of the battle. i just want him to love and accept me for who i am and not try to expect me to be something that i am not.

I am still high raw. i do eat some beans and occasionally gluten free treats, but not often. I love eating mostly raw and dont think that will change.

Anyway, just thought i would drop a note of hello. i guess i will know soon at least what the fate of this marriage is going to be........

nope haven't fell off the planet just been involved in fall holidays. they will be done next week (Sunday) and can resume some blogging then. between homeschool, holidays, teaching - phew! i have been BUSY!

workout:
1 hour prenatal yoga (teaching)
1 hour vinyasa yoga (teaching)


starting my first classes for one of the local yoga studios. it iwll be nice to teach in a little different atmosphere than the gym. we will see how they go!!! i am excited though. these i get paid a percentage per person, it may start out smaller but has the potential to make quite a bit more than what i make at a gym. so i guess we will see how it goes.

also i am subbing a body pump class tomorrow am so need to study up on my choreography for that! oy! i have plenty to do! i get 2 days off this week because we have Holy Days starting Wesd night. i will probably still take a couple of little walks, but other than that i have those 2 days off! i am kind of looking forward to it

i am going to be CRAZY busy for the next few days, trying to teach, get the house together and get food ready for the Holy Days. hopefully i can get it all done!

monday workout:
60 minutes body pump (teaching)
60 minutes hatha flow yoga (teaching)
practicing karate with son

tuesday workout:
60 minutes body pump
60 minutes hatha flow yoga (teaching)
40 minutes total body toning (teaching)

weds workout:
60 minutes hatha flow yoga (teaching)
60 minutes silver sneakers (teaching)
60 minutes cycling

ok those are my workouts for the next few days, so in case i dont make it online that is what i am doing.

Chana is doign great with potty training! YAY! we are on day 4! and she is doing awesome. i dont think it will be long and she will be totally potty trained and we can have her byebye diapers party